This year for Thanksgiving we were at my family's house. But I need to tell you about the Tuesday or rather Friday before Thanksgiving. We got a phone call from DCFS asking us if we would like to take a placement of two girls, one of which we have had before. Well I told them that I knew there was another one and they couldn't find him. Needless to say they did and the court ordered that he be placed as well. Well we ended up taking the three and the newborn baby went to another foster family.
I wanted them so bad that I was willing to do whatever it took to care for these kids and love them and nurture them. But every time I prayed about it I wouldn't get a definite yes or no so I wasn't sure what was in store for these three kids. After we said that we would take them I found out somethings that were quite disturbing to me and with the problems we've been having with our own children I wasn't sure wither or not this was the right thing to do.
Well we headed out to my parents house for Thanksgiving and we had to take two vehicles because we wouldn't all fit into one now that we have almost doubled our family size.
We went bowling Thanksgiving morning and it was a ton of fun. I got a really good work out and it was fun to be with family. The middle foster child was so cute to watch she would get so excited just knocking down one pin. The oldest one took a while to warm up to the idea of it, but did end up bowling a bit and liking it.
This year I didn't get to go play soccer and football like I have in the past, because Nathan wasn't feeling well and I needed to get things ready to eat. I was in charge of stuffing and rolls. My family doesn't like stuffing, but everyone that eats stuffing loves it, so Nathan suggested that I make yucky stuffing so that no one would ask me to make it again. Ha ha I like stuffing just can't and won't eat it all by myself.
We had a wonderful time with my family and I absolutely love them all and am so blessed to have them be a part of our lives. The kids did really well and I'm really looking forward to spending more time with them.
When we got back I think that I got so overwhelmed with everything that I had to do to make these extra three kids fit with our family that I went into a depression survival mode type of mood. Terrible thing to go through when you have so many toddlers depending on you. I don't know how you super women out there do all that you do. I did get the oldest enrolled in kindergarten at East Elementary and she ended up with a really good teacher for which I'm extremely grateful. Also got the youngest to the dentist and that was a big eye opener for me. Because he was on medicaid we were sent to a dentist in Park City. They did a fabulous job I would highly recommend them to anyone who is looking for dental work for children. The poor little one needed over $4000 dollars worth of dental work done on him. I don't know how he even eats. Really breaks my heart to see others be so careless of their children.
The first time we took our "new temporary" family to church was actually not as bad as I thought it would be. They sat through sacrament meeting really well, granted I had packed a bag full of quite activities and snacks, but it worked. Then Landen took the one to nursery while I took the other two to primary. Ended up in the nursery with the younger two but was able to slip out when they went to singing time. Few, I can do this. If ye are prepared ye shall not fear! I know this to be true!
Christmas
This year for me didn't feel like Christmas. We didn't have a tree, not because we didn't try. I guess I'm to picky when it comes to trees and I wasn't about going to settle for a cedar bush, and I didn't want to pay $50+ for one either. I wasn't happy with the tree we ended up with either, but was glad that I didn't have to set it up or take it down. We put our tree up December 23. That is the latest that I have ever done that. I was in a miserable mood. Didn't want to put the tree up to just have to turn around and take it back down again in a few days. The real reason for my mood was loosing the kids we just got. I didn't want to let them go, but knew that it was the right thing to do. I wanted to have them for Christmas, but at the same time I wanted them gone. I was stressed about not being ready for Christmas and didn't know what to do about it. I told Nathan not to get me anything, because I wasn't getting anything for him other then a new pair of slippers. Found out that he did get me stuff and that really ticked me off that he wouldn't listen to me. When I tell you not to get me anything I mean it! More stress added trying to buy for him as well at the last minute. Then remembered that we were hosting a Christmas party at our house for Nathan's family. Insert more stress worrying about cleaning and getting every thing ready and on top of that having to entertain guest. I just kept getting deeper and deeper and I was really not feeling the "true" meaning of Christmas this year.
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| My Family that was only for a short month! Love them!! |
I am so grateful for our Savior Jesus Christ, for the atonement and the example that he set for us to follow. May we never lose sight of that and always use it in our lives and the lives of those we come in contact with! Merry Christmas all even though I am a month and a few weeks late!
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